The so-called meaning is actually a relationship
between something and one's desire, or one's need,
and usually there is a certain feeling as a result.
So I should use the word 'desire'
to reveal the essential of all my problems
rather than the abstract and indirect word 'meaning'.

The so-called the meaning of life is impossible to attain
because there is no specific unique desire which is being pointed to
by an ordinary person in his whole life.
What there is are the constantly varying and conflicting desires.
The meaning of life we usually seeking for
is actually the eternal, permanent value of life,
and there is no such value except our survival, existent itself.
So the seeking for meaning of life is a delusion and an illusion!
It is the project of our desire to attain a sense of certainty
under a varying condition.
So we should try to face the varying reality
as bravely as possible, as closely as possible.